I'm not

I'm not great

I'm not perfect

I'm actually not even close

I'm not skinny

or super model pretty

I'm not super self confident

I can't run 6 miles in a day

I can't watch sad movies without crying

I have a pretty bad memory

I'm not normal

I'm not cookie cutter

I'm not boring

I'm me.

And I Hate You

Because everyday I think of him, her, it...

whatever.

And it's all your fault.

Because I didn't want it,

and it happened anyway.

Because you broke me down,

and washed me away.

There's not much left anymore.

Last year I wanted to die,

now I just wish you would.

Up and Down

You know how roller coasters take forever to get all the way to the top,

then you sit up at the very top for like two seconds,

and you know that your about to go down really fast?

Life's like that too.

Exactly like that.

Life sucks,

then it slowly gets better,

then you're great for a while,

then you realize that it's all gonna crash,

and then,

it does.

Poop.

What goes up must come down.

And then go up and come down again,

and again,

and again...